Marianne Mackay, Toby, Hope, Joel and Darcy Mackay |
In a somewhat random moment of fate Hope found it somewhere in an album and pasted it into a scrap book. On picking her up one morning in the week she suddenly announces she has something to show me. Cue tears. Luckily she leant me the scrapbook and off I rushed to Boots where they managed to scan it in still stuck in Hopey's book and simultaneously listen to my life story at the same time. I now have loads of copies/discs etc. Toby came into my life like a whirlwind and pretty much left the same way. There is a space left by him that no one else can fill. It's a feeling that is always there. An emptiness, a hollowness that pervades everything. A feeling of something missing, of something gone, of a loss so huge that it takes your breath away. And yet underneath all that there is a sense of wonder and gratefulness that fate allowed me to have him in my life, to have known him, to feel this way. Sometimes I think I'm just passing time now until I see him again. This photograph is such a precious thing to have as it reminds me that it was real. I wish I could climb into the picture and go back in time. I miss him." Previous page |
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